There's a side of me that

Is a scaredy cat

She's always afraid to do things

Because she's afraid to hurt

If I say this, will they hate me?

If I do this, will they leave?

She's scared.

So scared.

She takes up half of my life.

There are some people whom

Can tell you that they'll always be there for you

That they'll never leave you, even if things turn sour

That they'll always be there for you.

But no everyone keeps to their promises.

Some people leave the moment they realize you have differences

Some people leave when you speak up about them.

I...

Can't do this.

But I have to do this.

How can I watch a friend ruin her life?

But,

What if she doesn't listen?

What if she gets mad?

What if she will hate me forever?

Does that mean that

I'm in the wrong?

I'm scared.

I'm scared of losing more people again.

I know that if it comes down to that stage I wouldn't have a choice but

A part of me is just too scared

And I'm trying hard to suppress it.

I may be scared but,

I have to be brave.

Speak out.

At least,

You've done your best.

-Yumi.