...I cried again.

Stop hiding yourself from the truth, I beg you.

-Yumi.

It's the kind of feeling you get when you try to play the middleman.

I've been doing that for years, yet the isolation stings real bad.

Usually, you never see anyone else trying to resolve something between two people.

Of course, when you DO try, especially when those two are your friends, sometimes you might end up losing one of them.

Until today, I still don't understand why people say things like, "I won't like you if you like her."

I guess, everyone does have their choice to whom they want to like.

But sometimes, even in the worst circumstances, you have to put up with a certain person.

That's what I've always done, and will continue to.

Always help everyone, always smile for everyone, everyone will automatically like you.

It's something I live by.

Probably because of that everytime I cry so many people were there for me.

were.

Middleman isn't such a good role.

You lose lots of friends along the way.

I guess, that's how you find true friends?

Middleman never did bring much joy.

You hear complaints about people, from both sides, and you try to resolve it.

It's not as simple as it sounds.

I don't know what else to say.

It's really for the level.

I want the level to stay as one.

The bond is superficial.

It's scary.

It's not something I want to just accept as a fact.

I know I'm stubborn.

But I never liked being blocked by wall to friendship.

Friendship is a word no one can ever decipher it's real meaning.

There are so many kinds of friendships.

Yet so little friendships remain forever.

It's creepy.

I don't like it.

I want to change it.

And on the way, if I lose many friends, if it can bring everyone together in peace...why not?

I lived by this.

I will continue to.

That's why, stop hating others.

The more I hear about it, the more stressed I get.

It's almost like all the fault started from me.

The blame is always on me.

I say it myself.

It is on me;

because I couldn't resolve it for them.

I believe that half of our level would flame me after reading this (bitter laugh).

At least, I hope the other half will understand what I'm trying to do.

Because we shall never fall apart.






-Yumi.

You know.

I've always realized.

That when I'm down,

no one's there to listen to me.

Even if they could

they wouldn't.

My voice,

is like a distant wind.

It doesn't affect anybody,

It doesn't catch anyone's attention either.

My self,

is like a transparent glass,

I'm right there,

yet you can't see me.

Who ever knew

the bonds we shared

could be so weak?

Who ever knew

that the problems we face

I couldn't do anything.

I tried hard.

But no one listened.

Is my voice

that soft?

Is my presence

that non-existent?

If someone could just listen

hear me out

then maybe

these tears would stop falling.

-Yumi.

Because I'm bored~

I'm opening a blog on livejournal~

(Because I need one the join the different communities XD)

Don't worry,this will continue to be my main blog!

Also, I hope all of you do know my plans on releasing an album online by the end of the year.

The album will be entitled《弹奏曲》:)

I'll try my best to write and compose 12 songs before the June holidays start!

I already finished 3 full songs and 2 choruses.

If you guys have any ideas on what else I should write about,comment ne~

(Miselle,don't say write about Red Cross.)

Getting less productive by the days...

I needa buck up,or else I'll never finish those songs!

Oh yeah, does anyone know where I can practice my composing?Haha,I need the drums! XD

Lol

-Yumi.

0[]0 OMG I NEVER POSTED MY STORY "MY SPLATTERED HEART PAINTS THE WALL"!?!?

How can that be POSSIBLE!?I am so proud of that story!!!

Okay anyway since I can't find it on my recent posts I shall (re)post it!

Still I really doubt I've never EVER posted this before.

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"My splattered heart paints the wall."

It was nowhere nearing dawn.
In fact, this night was a long one.
One filled with screams and cries.

All you could do was stare at the cold-blooded killer, coated with the splendors of the red pigment, standing in the middle of her eaten supper.

The long blade she slowly lifted up, and licked the trailing blood off the ends of it.

Then swiftly, she thrusted the blade into you, with both agitation and despair in her eyes.

As you fell onto your knees, she did the same, quickly losing her sharp vision.

All you could see was the array of colours spinning in front of you, carefully leading you to the gateways of the afterworld. And she saw the same.

Then, finally, the two of you collasped on the ground, your blood splattered on the once plastered white back alley wall.

As your heartbeat began to fade, a deep pain had pierced you mentally.

For the truth could not be denied; the murderer -- she was you.

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Comment on it okii? XDD

-Yumi.

Yaye!I found something to write on!Awesome!!!!!

But I have serious doubts anyone would actually read it.

Why I say that,you'll find out why.

THUS,I SHALL START!!! XDD

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妈妈

妈妈，是我人生最重要的人物。
妈妈，她脸上总带着微微的笑容。
晚上，她会一直看着我，直到安眠为止。
早上，她会在我的身旁等着跟我说“早安”。

我给了妈妈个拥抱：
妈妈个子好小啊，
头发也不是真发。

我的妈妈，
是摆在床边的洋娃娃。

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PLEASE TELL ME YOU READ IT.

PLEASE.

Anyway,for people who didn't understand,it's about a girl who has lost her mother/got abandoned by her mother etc etc and now she's gone mad and thinks that her doll is her mother.

Yea,that's the story behind it.

I wrote another one too,actually.But I think the English version for that is still much better than the Chinese version.

I don't know if I've posted it before,
the title of that story is "My splattered heart paints the wall".

Hmmm.I shall go check.

-Yumi.

It's been a while since I've last posted here,huh.

I promise that I'll come up with a long long long passage soon~

Until then X3

-Yumi.

omg.And of course.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRIYA XDD

-Kimmie.

I found this awesome little bear that's totally different from your normal cute-sey cuddly bears.

And I thought it sorta looks like Alyssa.

I present to you



Gloomy Bear.



-Kimmie.