Why am I

Suddenly so overwhelmed with hurt

With confusion

I don't know what's wrong with me

But all that's in my mind is you

You're like

A parasite

That feeds on my brain

Eating away reality from my mind

But yet, I love you

And I refuse to trade you away for reality

No matter how much

I try

I can't let go

What's wrong with me?

Everyone has

Already turned back

Yet I'm stuck here

Unable to

Move

Knowing,

I can't be with you

But yet desiring to

Be by your side

It's suffocating

Painful

Why am I

Doing this to myself?

Why am I crying?

What's there to cry over?

You give me so much pain but

Yet I can't get rid of you

Without you there's no light in the dark room

You're my gleam of hope

It's so dumb how

I do this to myself

When there's probably so many better people out there

Yet my heart feels like

It can never love

Anyone as much as you anymore.

-Yumi.