"Ne,what do you think I should be when I'm bigger?"

"I'm scared..."

"Mummy's too much..."

Who do you usually say that to?

Your friend? Your brother? Your sister? Your pet?

How about a pillow?

Yes...I grew up with that pillow.

The pillow I hugged to sleep every night, the pillow I complained to when I'm sad, the pillow I squeezed real tight whenever I felt down...

That's the whole story about it.

My pillow. It's still with me, but I don't talk to it as much as I did last time.

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"Let me tell you a secret...it happened to me when I was young..."

Then I cried. It was never nice remembering the past.

The corrupted past...

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"What would you do when your being bullied? Oh wait, you don't! You're always in the room with Wolfie and Husky and Dennis and Ele..."

Yes, I was dumb.

So what if I was? I wanted friends.

But I hardly had any.

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"Mummy scolded me again...I don't like her..."

We always say that, don't we?

I knew my pillow wouldn't understand the feeling, or even feel anything.

It was just a pillow.

But yet it was special, to me.

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Sometimes I referred as it to as Mukuro. Riku. Dante. Kiku. Sora. and lots of others.

Maybe it's better off being called pillow after all.

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"I'm stupid. I'm dumb. No one likes me. I know that. No one bothers to talk to me. I'm just left out all the time. No one ever understands me like you do. But that's what makes me me, I guess."

"I hate it when they bully me. Why me and not others? Am I really that frail?"

"I'm always an alien...and I will continue to be one until my last day on the Earth."

As long as my pillow is with me, I don't mind being weird forever.

I just need a huggable friend to count on throughout my life.

-Yumi.