小钰最爱★纯真

2011-12-26T02:13:00.001+08:00

絶対負けないぞ。

これはまだ最初のチャレンジー

きっと

僕は

成功するな。

だね？

-Yumi.

2011-12-21T13:15:00.001+08:00

I know I'm stupid.

-Yumi.

2011-12-18T23:51:00.002+08:00

Hey'all lovelies :D

I made a Facebook page, so please like it ♥

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Inamura-Yumi/223509227717426

Thanks~~ >w< /

-Yumi.

2011-11-14T21:44:00.002+08:00

I feel bad.

Really bad.

Why is it whenever things happen it seems like I can do nothing?

It sucks.

Alot.

I don't know how to feel after it happens.

Just a sense of despair.

Sense of loss.

Like I feel I've lost touch with myself.

Then I start thinking,

Why am I so weak?

Can I really do nothing about it?

No one listens,

No one at all.

Then why is it I never stop trying?

...

I don't know.

I don't want to know.

...

But I still do it nevertheless.

Hahaha.

Blame myself for everything.

It's just blame...

That takes me down all the time.

-Yumi.

2011-10-31T18:38:00.000+08:00

Lalala.

Everybody get 'em high.

-Yumi.

2011-09-10T23:58:00.002+08:00

I thought of this a long time ago, but it took me almost a week to convince myself to write this.

This will not only on my main blog, but also on my Ameblo and facebook. It's something I wish for everyone to see.

...

What a corrupted world we live in, don't you agree? It's rampant in vices. Theft, gambling, drug dealing... you name it, you have it. But yet, does corruption only count as what it is with this certain degree of severity? No, it doesn't.

Corruption.

Corruption of the mind.

Foul language.

Are all those not a form of being corrupt?

You are as dirty as the people you speak of behind their backs.

Yes, it may seem that they are at fault in certain ways, talking bad about others and putting down their morales,

But aren't you doing the same?

There is no difference, no matter how hard you try to make a clear cut.

The world was made for everyone to enjoy.

Jealousy and anger, they are all man-made. It is not the true nature of mankind. The nature that gives us the power to love, to care.

But we have created, with our own hands, the power to hate, the power to desolate others. All negatives were man-made.

They are only perceived as due to passing time.

So why must we fight? Why must we hate? Why can't we forgive?

I wish for a world of peace. And I'm sure I'm not the only one.

But how can that be achieved if we don't put our negative thoughts at rest?

Changing the world may be hard, but changing yourself is a determination's step away.

...

Maybe I'll get flamed for this, maybe you'll disagree, maybe you'll hate me.

But it's a selfish wish I want to share...

And hopefully,

See it come true.

-Yumi.

2011-09-03T00:31:00.000+08:00

Eesh. I get it! -3- and you guys arent even asleep yourselves!!!

-Yumi.

2011-08-18T01:04:00.003+08:00

Let's put this straight.

I HATE Math.

And Math hates me too.

So please, stop pressurizing me to do better.

I can't even feel the passion for the subject at all.

I know my grades have dropped.

But what can I do?

A blur of numbers make no sense to me.

Even before, Math was always my worst.

So stop.

Please stop.

I hate it.

-Yumi.

2011-08-18T00:59:00.002+08:00

I realized that, telling the bad news first isn't necessarily the best thing to do.

Because every once I tell her a bad thing, she just can't stop nagging at me.

It just makes me feel like hiding the good news that I wanted to tell her forever.

Just keep the scolding going.

And I'll cry silently to myself:

the dreams I had wished for,

had always,

never came true.

Life is like lie.

A blatant lie, placed before us blind men.

-Yumi.

2011-08-10T21:19:00.000+08:00

2011-08-10T11:56:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I really wonder why I joined in the first place.

I was so scared of commitment...

And now...

-Yumi.

2011-08-09T00:22:00.002+08:00

Because we make an awesome team!

Loves you so much Mok mok <3 And thanks Ivan and Jaime for all the photos too >w<

And of course not forgetting my awesome make-up artist Kirsten and director/host Kasee 8D

PANTY AND STOCKING GENDERBEND FTW!!!!!!!

Alex as Panty
Yumi as Stocking

-Yumi.

2011-07-28T11:39:00.002+08:00

From green to blue.

From shorts to skirts.

I don't understand.

From bonded to separated.

I don't feel together anymore.

From equal to labelled.

It doesn't feel the same anymore.

It just doesn't.

-Yumi.

2011-07-27T22:00:00.002+08:00

What is the purpose of life?

Is it just to study away,

Is it just to waste your life on books?

...

No.

I don't believe so.

Then why?

Why must we make life so miserable for our souls?

Even when we want to have fun,

there's always something in your way...

And you can't get rid of it.

I just want to be who I am.

Is it that hard to understand my desire?

My desire;

My desire to be myself.

I'm no girl who sits down quietly to study.

I'm not like any other friend of mine.

I am myself.

I have my own opinions.

And yet, why don't you understand?

I just want to be me.

The only me I love.

Me...

-Yumi.

2011-07-27T21:03:00.001+08:00

I took 4 freaking tests in one day, and yet you don't allow me to rest one bit.

-Yumi.

2011-06-13T16:32:00.000+08:00

I'm so unsure of my own feelings.

-Yumi.

2011-06-11T14:45:00.004+08:00

I'm always looking at myself.

Who am I?

Some emo kid down the street;

A stubborn girl who wants everything her way;

A good student who gets results that satisfy her parents?

I'm neither.

I don't know who I am.

But he made me realize.

I am just like any other person.

I wanted love.

And love did i get.

It feels so different, yet it feels so right.

But nothing ever works out right.

And the first bend had to arrive sooner than I thought.

Am I really not restricted?

Can I not be trusted with the people I choose?

Am I that stupid in your eyes?

Maybe I am.

I don't know.

...

Who am I...?

-Yumi.

2011-05-29T08:45:00.001+08:00

The things I do when I'm bored...

Really can't compare to anyone else.

-Yumi.

Note: Wig from CC KIDS.

2011-05-11T00:04:00.002+08:00

It's Takeru-kun's birthday.

You know, Takeru from SuG.

So, for his birthday!

I mustered up ALL my courage and posted on his twitter...

And now I'm hoping he'll see it.

Real badly.

I felt as if my heart was going to faint went I posted it, but I did anyway.

Well! At least he had a good time in Japan...

Hehe.

Okii, gotta go.

-Yumi.

2011-05-08T09:57:00.001+08:00

Hualalala.

There's no personal say in this world.

Neither is there freedom of expression.

Even if there is,

you'll just get flamed anyway.

-Yumi.

2011-05-08T09:22:00.002+08:00

I realized my blog is very dull (and emo. and very emo. and very very emo...)

So I guess I'll do something else for a change :|

CHANGE my LIFE by D☆DATE

(I'm very sure that this video will be deleted soon, so appreciate it while it's around)

In case you don't know who they are...

(according to their first appearance in the video)

Seto Koji

The cutest/hottest guy in the whole group <3 <3 He acted as Satoru (Atashinchi no Danshi), Yuuta (Tumbling), Wataru (Kamen Rider Kiva) and much much more...

He was also the vocalist of a J-rock band called TETRA-FANG

Araki Hirofumi

Even I just found out something new about this guy o.o HE ACTED WITH TAKERU IN BEAT ROCK LOVE! xDD

Igarashi Shunji

Don't really know much on him...-googles-

He acted in Paradise Kiss (movie) and was in Hana Yori Dango... o.o <3

Horii Shintai (I really can't find his real name anywhere, bla. He's a replacement for Nakamura Yuichi...)

There isn't much of him online, but I know he just joined D-BOYS last year.

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In the end, I find my other blog posts much nicer than this. haha.

-Yumi.

2011-03-26T16:05:00.002+08:00

I didn't even mean it in that way.

I wasn't even freaking talking about that.

Why is it that I feel

you never understand me?

I know why now.

My intentions were never really seen.

Fine, I was bad.

Fine, I was being stupid.

Fine, everything's my fault.

Fine...

but why do you make seem as if

there's no good side of me?

-Yumi.

2011-03-08T22:23:00.002+08:00

I don't know why.

I really don't know why.

I'm just that stupid.

So stupid I even cried.

-Yumi.

2011-03-08T22:07:00.003+08:00

Excuses.

Excuses excuses.

Why is it that when I try to explain, my explanation just become excuses?

Why is it that I always end up listening to my friends?

Why is it that they always change their minds on me?

It feels so painful.

It almost feels like betrayal.

I don't know why...

But I just feel this way.

...

Maybe I'm really that stupid after all.

-Yumi.

2011-02-17T23:08:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I feel like no one's actually there for me,even when they're standing by my side.

-Yumi.

2011-02-17T22:55:00.003+08:00

How many people actually realize pain?

How many people actually understand pain?

How many people...

can actually tell that the person right beside you is in pain.

Can't you see invisible tears?

Rolling down her cheek?

Can't you see the despair in her eyes?

Can't you see,

Can't you see, that she'd rather end her life.

Everyday is filled with pain.

But we have because numb to it.

It hits us everyday,

just like how the sun never fails to beat down on us.

But that's when you think,

no one can feel it anymore.

But there are some.

Some who are just breaking down,

some who refuse to show it.

Some who suffer in silence...

...and their friends can't see it.

-Yumi.

2011-01-16T00:59:00.002+08:00

Privacy?

What is that?

A foreign word in the dictionary?

...

I am human.

Every human needs their own space.

So what if we're close?

Everyone has their own secrets.

Secrets made own only to themselves.

What gives you the right to expose them?

What gives you the right to treat me as an invisible wall

and dig you my belongings?

Why is it that

I never get my own personal space?

I don't want to hear your questioning.

I don't want to look at you.

Just leave my things alone.

Cause I'm perfectly fine with who I am now.

Why must you squeeze the dreams out of me?

-Yumi.

2010-11-18T00:30:00.002+08:00

It's too early to give up.

It's too early to let go.

Everyone's there for you,

can you see it?

They're all around you,

always supporting you.

Maybe things don't always go your way,

but that's why you need to face it.

That's why it's there to help you grow.

Even if you're feeling down,

just remember all your fans!

Everyone's already there to help

to help you be strong again.

Dakara Akira-san,

Ganbatte ne!!!

-Yumi.

2010-11-15T16:30:00.002+08:00

A diversion from an old love

Wilted flowers rebloom again

A step out of despair

Momentary loves.

The short period of time is so sweet

yet it makes separation so bitter.

-Yumi.

2010-10-31T01:02:00.002+08:00

A sense of trust I thought I'd never lose.

In the end,

I had to lose the part I gave to you.

-Yumi.

2010-10-30T00:56:00.002+08:00

I can't believe it.

It just crumbled within a day.

Right after we patched it up,

Everything just went down the drain.

-Yumi.

2010-10-20T22:41:00.003+08:00

...I really don't like how others degrade people.

(no I don't mean looks or whatever)

Like so what if the anime doesnt have a plot that you like?

So what if you don't understand it at all?

Why can't you just look at the positive sides of it?

Just look,even I'm starting to accept English songs (just still object to having them in my MP3)

Why can't others do that too?

Why can't they recognise the efforts?

...

The world is so superficial.

I wish they would see deeper.

Deeper into the details.

...

It isn't fair.

Everyone should be given a fair chance.

It isn't nice degrading something to such a low level (yes and I do take back how I said JB was gay BUT he's still bleh.)

...

Well if you don't enjoy Japanese history,then just don't comment on Hakuouki's plot,damnit.

And if you don't enjoy shoujo,DON'T COMMENT FURTHER.

I'm getting really pissed off about it.

...

...

Do you realize this is the first time I'm actually directly stating my feelings?

Well,I don't care.

I've never been this angry ever in my life.

It's like everything had already been building in there.

...

Actually,it has.

How long have I kept something I hate you talking about aside?

Probably for 1 year if it's consistent,more if it were a one time remark.

But it's not like I can smile or pout and act normal forever.

...

My head's really messed up now.

Maybe I need a break.

...

Then again,it just gets worse.

I guess,too many things have been stored in my heart already.

Maybe,it finally reach its full capacity.

I really can't take anymore.

...

Whoever that will read this,please don't say anything that I find negative to me for this weekend.

I really had enough.

And I don't want more.

I'm sick and tired of this.

But there's a 99% chance you'll never understand my feelings

Because,truly,just like how the trainer said that 85% of our character is kept aside

...

...

no one in this world actually understands my pain.

That's because.

Whatever I show to you,

is just a 100% facade.

...

...

...

I just have to live with it in the end.

-Yumi.

2010-10-12T23:40:00.004+08:00

I was supposed to wake up to another normal day.

But I guess,from now onwards,

my perception of normal days...

will be distorted.

All I can do is stare

stare into the empty space under the window

and wonder why it had to be missing.

A tuft of fur is all I have left,

a shower of tears is all I have to give.

I knew you were going,

but this was too soon for me...

So all I can do is stare

stare into that empty space

wondering why you weren't there

among us...

...I miss you.

Why can't you come back to me?

...It's okay.

I still have your collar.

It still has your scent.

I'll make do with it.

Because I know.

You're still with us.

No matter where we are.

...I miss you...

-Yumi.

2010-10-05T18:45:00.002+08:00

Ahh,I'm so screwed.

History was horrible today.And I should be studying now.

Okay,I will continue at 7!!!

This blog is really dead isn't it.

I promise I'll bring it up again after exams!

Can't wait to design those uniforms/costumes for Viola ♥

~New Announcement~

On 10/9, Viola was formed, starting off with 2 members, Cheryl and Jessica.

A few hours later, Kimberly was invited to join.

Weeks after, the band welcomed a new member; Sharifah.

And just yesterday, yet another member had joined -- Elizabeth.

It is not yet confirmed whether the band will invite another member in.

The leader has not been chosen, and will be decided through a game of black and white during the band's first official meeting (after O levels)

Kimberly and Jessica are currently in charge of the band's merchandise, and Kimberly has also volunteered to design a 'uniform' for the band, which will probably turn out extremely complex due to Kimberly's hate for simplicity in design D8

In other words,

I'M FINALLY IN MY OWN BAND! ♥

recruiting another guitarist~ anyone interested?

just comment in the tag box if you're interested...

...and make sure you can balance your time out,we're gonna be busy next year onwards! ♥

-Yumi.

2010-10-03T01:32:00.002+08:00

Don't you just love how this the video contradicts :)

(PUNCH) ……让我照顾你~

I really shouldn't be updating my blog now.

But Charisse said I have to D:

-Yumi.

2010-09-02T12:20:00.002+08:00

26 days and counting...

...

...TO SHINDONG'S BIRTHDAY!

No really,it is Shindong's birthday.

Anyway. I wasn't putting too much attention on THAT birthday.

26 DAYS AND COUNTING...

TO ORE-SAMA NO TANJOUBI!
*feel the sense of soaring ego*

hehe.

Sadly, it's on a Tuesday,but I'm not sure if there is a test on that day.

One thing I know is that I'll probably spend the day studying.

*sigh*

-Yumi.

2010-08-29T17:59:00.002+08:00

Nyan, it happened.

I'm crying.

For you.

-Yumi.

2010-08-28T21:17:00.002+08:00

It's either the notes are too high, the accompaniment screws up, or the vocalist just can't pronounce her words.

Ouhwell.

Jia you Highstick!

Although I personally don't know 3 of you, I'll just cheer for the sake of your bassist being my friend.

-Yumi.

2010-08-27T22:53:00.002+08:00

I need opinions. Badly.

I really really really really really REALLY dislike English songs.

But it has come to light that I am fit to do a cover for Viva la Vida. Well, because I've got my man voice well-trained already! So well that I CAN'T SING AS HIGH PITCHED AS TAKERU ANYMOREEEEEEEEEEE!!!! (melts into puddle and cries)

But then again, I don't really want to spoil my reputation of loathing to record English songs. Also, I know that lots of people out there are Coldplay fans and I could get flamed any moment :\

So I really wanna know what you think. Should I cover the song? Should I not? Should I buy a new microphone before I do (lol)?

Please leave your comment in my tag box~

Oh and if you're wondering about the quality of a cover you can always listen to my Fail!cover of Matsushita Yuya's "Negai ga Kanau Nara"

Thank youz,

-Yumi.

2010-08-20T21:23:00.002+08:00

If I could smile every second of my life truthfully,

If I could resist any annoyance forever,

If I could forgive for what you do to me all the time,

There must be a reason why I am not God.

I am human.

I can suppress my anger.

It's not that I don't mind everything you say about me.

I can hide my depression.

It's not that I'm always happy and cheerful.

I can put up with people.

It doesn't mean I've forgiven them totally.

But one thing I can never hide.

Is my tears.

No, no tears fall in depression.

Tears only fall in true sorrow.

Tears that never betray me.

Tears that always tell me the same message:

You just ruined your life again.

But why?

Simple.

Because my friends are humans.

And I am nothing,

Nothing more,

Than a little rag doll,

Thrown from owner to owner,

Until she reaches her final destination:

The bin.

A rag doll,

A little, dirty, rag doll,

Longed to be treated as a human,

Longed to be accepted as a human once again.

I am human.

I have feelings.

You had times you hated me.

Why is it that I can't have those too?

When you turn your back to me,

I won't choose to do the same.

When I finally turn my back to you,

Why is it that a mere statement made you do it to me?

-Yumi.

2010-08-19T22:46:00.002+08:00

Stop commenting about my height, damnit.

I've endured enough.

-Yumi.

2010-08-18T20:03:00.003+08:00

Sometimes when you're feeling dejected,

happy songs aren't actually the ones which can make you feel better.

-Yumi.

2010-08-18T20:00:00.003+08:00

I can't believe this is happening,

but I'm actually doing my math homework.

-Yumi.

2010-08-11T16:34:00.004+08:00

Maybe I really wasn't human in their eyes.

What does my ambition have to do with maths? I don't inspire to be a banker.

What does my ambition have to do with science? I don't crave to be a inventor.

What does my ambition have to do with English? I don't want to be a novelist.

What does my ambition have to do with History? I don't like the thought of being a historian.

What does my ambition have to do with Geography? I'm not going to point out crude oil spots.

What does my ambition have to do with anything else?

What does singing have to do with all those?

Is that not my ambition?

-Yumi.

2010-08-11T15:57:00.002+08:00

I'm broken, really broken.

All I'm expected to do is study study and study.

Man, and I'm very sure that my mum said as long as I'm happy with my marks it'll be fine.

I'm doing okay.

I don't see how I'm behind everyone.

And I'm human.

I'm not some robot that studies 24/7.

Just let me be myself.

-Yumi.

2010-08-10T22:18:00.001+08:00

Getting lectured now.

Me don't like lectures.

Gonna cry now, buai.

-Yumi.

2010-08-09T23:03:00.002+08:00

Behold the worst cover ever done DX

For some reason, I just can't stop listening to my own cover, even though it sucks sucks sucks sucks =3=

Why do I say so? Every time I listen to it I find another fault. Bleah.

Sorry if the last part is super loud. I softened it...over 4 times. But still loud.

I'll be trying Snow Rain next (If I can get the karaoke version) and I'm sure that song would be much better than this one, since I've been practising that song since Sec 1.

Then again, I can't guarantee that you'll like it.

13th August, Snow Rain cover.

20th August, I want to try Boys & Girls. (although I'll probably die)

Maybe I should try I Ai Ai instead.

Anyway, please listen to it, and comment (either here or facebook).

I'll appreciate whatever comments or feedbacks thrown at me.

Once again,

I SUCK DX

-Yumi.

2010-08-08T23:26:00.003+08:00

Really, did no one notice it on Saturday?

No one at all?

Really really, NO ONE?

I'm shocked.

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Well, the truth is,

I binded my chest on Saturday :D

For fun.

Okay, not exactly.

But chest-binding was fun.

I want to do it more often.

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Not that I want to lead you guys the wrong path;

but cross-dressing is fun.

To be honest, I find lots of joy in doing so.

I get jealous of boy celebrities getting more attention than girls, you know.

You must find me weird now.

I guess it's not a secret that I dream to be a singer one day.

Wanna know something else?

...

Won't it be cool to be a cross-dresser model?

It really didn't sound appealing to me at first, until my friend Kirsten starting blabbering on and on about my bishie looks and everything...

And it seemed very fitting.

Not to mention, guy celebrities can goof around more than the female ones, and they attract much much much much more attention and stuff. (not to mention how amazingly cute they can be at times and then the next moment smexily cool)

Jealous, jealous me.

So, on one hand, I can be Yumi, a singer,

and I could be Miyu, a model.

(laughs) I shouldn't tell you all these, should I?

Because, if it really does happen next time, won't you know who I am? :D

By the way, if you find me really weird, especially if you're my junior and right now reading this, please do not get some culture shock kind of thing. I'm not THAT scary. Just maybe a bit crazy over Visual Kei :D

Can I fantasize a bit here?

Wait, this is my blog, why am I asking you?

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Just imagine, one day, you walk out on the street, in this tank top and silver(?) jacket (and awesome black jeans), and then, there's this horde of girls following behind you, asking for your autograph, fangirling behind your back, trying their best to take a photo with you.

...I think I'm freaking you out.

And of course, another day, you walk out on the street, with blue jeans, and this pink dress thingy (I don't know what it's called, but it's my favourite dress among all those in my closet, especially because of the material). Adorned with a nice butterfly necklace, bracelet and a amethyst ring(yea my only ring), of course. This time, a group of boys follow you instead, pretending like nothing's happening, but throwing occasional glances at you.

If I'm really freaking you out too much, I suggest you stop reading and wash your face with some water.

But really, that's how much I want to experience the life of a celebrity.

The life of being stalked. Okay not really if I was stalked I would stick to Maonyan/Takeru/Ashin/Uruha/Reita/Maya to make sure that I don't get raped. Lol.

...Oh wait, I just remembered the first option isn't that safe 8D

Neither is the second option.

Dangit you S people.

Okay I'm leaving topic.

>So, if you managed to read until the end, good for you!

Oh and Happy National Day :D

I will be recording my first cover, Negai ga Kanau nara, so do support ne(by listening to it)~

See ya~

-Yumi. ♥

2010-07-13T19:42:00.003+08:00

I'm racking my brains really hard trying to think of another English song to write.

Yes this is the time I realized that my English song writing skills had degraded so much D:

And so I guess I'll leave Amanda's request of a POC song till another time.

LOL.

Best if I finished it now.

Are you Sec 2s stalking me?No right?

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Mehh.

I really haven't blogged for quite a while.

I guessed I lost all my blogging skills already.

Haven't been writing anything new recently either :(

This is so sad.

Life is so sad.

I wish I could poke it with a pencil. )< <<< OKAY I WAS REALLY KIDDING ABOUT THAT.

*cough* Anyway.

-Yumi.

2010-06-11T00:20:00.003+08:00

I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack.

Being the leader of the "Pear" group, I found myself opposing lots to the "Apple" group (<< Joses' group) [mohahahahahaha.go die.I know I'm bad.lol.high.]

I tell you, this must be the first time that my group actually came in in a higher rank (2nd) o.o
Eh but then Jane was in the 1st place group.bleaaah.haha.joking.

But anyway.

I must tell you.

The kids.

Were really rowdy.

Really rowdy.

Really.

Rowdy.

And 3 boys (Aravin [forgot how to spell lor], Joshua K. and Shaun) were constantly singing "ole ole ole ole~" to me - -

Then there's your normal up-to-nonsense boy(Jia Jie), who in the end got "Best Actor". LOL(yes he was in my group). I got him to mouth his words, and Jace to use a baby voice and say into the mic "Okay mummy~"
Ownage,JJ.Ownage.

Oh.

Then.

There's.

Jamae.

Jamae- ~~senpai~~hentai to be accurate. (Older than me by few months, Jace said I should call her jie jie)

She very bad leh. ):

Always trying to hug me to sleep at night. D<

Hentai-san, I wonder who's mentally older )<

Oh!!

Oh!!

Then the kids were trying to make Joses laugh. That was the best.

Bryan pretended to try kiss Joses.
YesIdiedathearingthatIreallyreallydiedwhenJamaetoldmeIwaslaughingsohard

Okay I suppose before I go on I should stop here.

GEL Kidz Camp ftw <3

-Yumi.

2010-06-04T23:18:00.002+08:00

Oh, and guess who.

Oh dang it.

It's written on the cover.

-Yumi.

2010-06-04T22:54:00.003+08:00

Durarara.

When I first watched it, it seemed so fictional.

Then as I watched on...

It was as if I was right there.

And that got me thinking,

Because it felt as if I'd experienced it before.

But of course how could I? (laughs)

There's no real Orihara Izaya after all. [Or is there...?]

Kida-kun, Mikado-kun, Anri-chan...

Friends, yet they're fighting against each other.

Unknowningly.

Now,why does that sound so familiar to me...

It's like something I experienced long time ago...

Oh well.

If you can't run away from the past, then face it.

Kya~ I love that line.

-Yumi.

(If this didn't make any sense, just treat it as fawning. www)

2010-05-29T23:02:00.002+08:00

And so I thought I couldn't make it,

And so I thought I was going to break down.

Then I saw you.

Then I remembered you.

Then I...

smiled.

When the world was in a mess, you brought me away from this nightmare.

ありがとうね、マオにゃん。

永遠に、愛してる。

-Yumi.

2010-05-28T01:13:00.002+08:00

Then a bubble bursted.

Then a volcano erupted.

Then a hurricane blew.

Then a tsunami crashed.

Then an earthquake shook.

Then a bomb exploded.

Then again, why did it happen?

-Yumi.

2010-05-28T01:08:00.003+08:00

At first I thought maybe I'd never have to post this, but I guess, I should anyway. Since I already wrote it.

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If you find me annoying, then leave.
The choice is yours, whatever it may be, I'll respect it.
But don't try running back to me;
It was you who made the decision to go.

I'll harden my heart, I won't falter again.
I had enough of listening, why couldn't you let me speak.
Tears won't fall.
The glare would be colder.
I won't bother to waste my voice,
Especially if you wouldn't listen.

So you're complaining that you didn't get anything, and it's me, really?

-Yumi.

2010-05-28T01:00:00.002+08:00

And then I couldn't see,

Why you could choose things without asking everyone.

And then I couldn't see,

Why am I wrong.

And then I couldn't see,

Why did I let you take charge of me.

And then I couldn't see,

Why you made a scar in the wall.

And then I couldn't see,

Why they were wrong.

And then I couldn't see,

Why you were always right.

And then I couldn't see...

Why everything fails in your eyes.

-Yumi.

2010-05-21T21:52:00.003+08:00

And after my sad post, some cheering up :)

I FINALLY FINISHED XDD!!

1. 风雪之恋
2. 不要走我就不明白
3. 无翅小天使
4. 还小的时候
5. 弹奏曲
6. 英雄
7. 甜蜜妄想
8. 床底下有怪兽
9. 不懂
10. 指责了
11. 感情
12. 想帮你又帮不了

Let me just introduce the last 4 tracks! :D

Track 9...you know...I'm not sure how to phrase it...there are times where you feel that someone doesn't understand you. Yet that someone wants you to know that he/she will never leave you alone to fend for yourself.That sort of thing.

Track 10...uh...I don't want to talk about it...really...(Don't come and ask me what happened, because nothing did)

Track 11...emotions!Very vague subject isn't it? What I actually meant is that we should always think from another person's perspective of the world. :)

Track 12...I personally really like this song.Because it really reflects me.Yeah. :)

I know I didn't do much of intro, but these last 4 tracks bring back quite unpleasant memories, yea? Always leave the sad past behind :D

-Yumi.

2010-05-21T21:36:00.003+08:00

I'm lost on my own road.

What should I do?

What will be the best?

Why can't I answer my own questions?

Why can't I answer your questions too?

Why can't everyone understand?

Why can't I do anything...

Then again,

Was I too harsh?

Was I too pushy?

Was I too protective?

...Did you not feel any comfort?

...Did you feel more hurt?

...Did I do anything wrong?

...Did I make things worse?

Did I...

I'm lost on my own road.

Always was, always will be.

-Yumi.

2010-05-09T18:43:00.002+08:00

Hi people. :)

As you know from the earlier posts, I'm trying my best to release an album by the end of this year.

So far, from the 2 songs that I started out with, I'm closing up to 8 songs.

Hopefully, I can gain some attention from this album, which I'm planning to have 12 songs in it.

Let me give you some spoilers on the names:

1. 风雪之恋
2. 不要走我就不明白
3. 无翅小天使
4. 还小的时候
5. 弹奏曲
6. 英雄
7. 甜蜜妄想
8. 床底下有怪兽

Basically, track 2 and 4 are about the same, and you can count track 1 in if you want to,though it's quite different considering that the lyrics contain some irony.

Track 3 has quite an eye catching name,I suppose. Usually "fallen angels" would always try to build their way back up to heaven without wings, which is sort of impossible. This song is supposed to be showing how you can do whatever you want with determination, like my album!

Track 5 is my personal favourite. It's something like SID's one way, except in a more carefree perception. Mao has experienced harder times than me, thus I won't be able to write some awesome song like his DX You know how parents always tell you that you can only be 2 things when you grow up - a doctor or a lawyer? This song is reflecting those sayings, and it's also my album's name.

Track 6 and 7 is using almost the same accompaniment, but as you can see, one track is called "Hero" while the other is called "Sweet Delusion". Track 6 isn't your typical "Oh,my saviour!" kind of thing, it's actually the reverse; there's no such thing as a hero. Track 7 is...delusional XD haha. Got the inspiration from my friend.

Track 8! I personally dislike this one, but I thought it'll be fun to add this really "cute" and "child like" song inside. Yes, that's why I chose that subject as my song, "there's a monster under my bed!" At the same time, I'm hoping this song can convey this message to everyone: As long as you're happy, all your problems will go away.

Track 9-12 are still pending,so I'm trying my best to work at a really fast rate!!!!頑張って!!!!

Oh,if you guys want to know the spreadout for the schedule,it's something like:

2009- Track 2 completed

2010 (first quarter) - Track 1 completed

2010 (second quarter) - Track 3-8 completed

2010 (1st week june holidays) - (hopefully) Track 9-12 completed

2010 (other weeks june holidays) - start writing accompaniments

2010 (third quarter) - start recording

2010 (september holidays) - finish all recording

2010 (fourth quarter) - do touch ups, concentrate on EOYs

2010 (december holidays) - do final things (designing album cover etc)

And hopefully...

31/12/2010 (latest end product date) - release album!~

Everyone, please continue to support me :D

-Yumi.

P.S I still haven't found anywhere to practice my drums D:

2010-05-07T20:56:00.002+08:00

Passed First Aid Test

You know,the full body dummie was so heavy - -

By the time I finished CPR my hand died.

Ouh well.

I STILL PASSED! XDD

Hehe.

Good job to all sec 2s too~! Yaye~ we all passed together!

Ding Hui, good luck for the next time you're going, since you couldn't make it today!

G-double O-D-J-O-B GOOD JOB! (clap clap) GOOD JOB! (clap clap)

-Yumi.

Twist on the life story,never makes any sense.

2010-05-01T19:19:00.002+08:00

I never much emphasized about friendship, did I?

I lived by that value for years.

It's the same as gold, precious.

When separated from it, you shouldn't feel good.

Everyone wants friends.

But not everyone knows how.

I was once this way; I understand.

As you grow older and experience more of these,

it gets scary.

Because it pollutes the Earth.

I was never more frightened before.

It's happening now

It's happening right before my eyes.

Friends slowly becoming distant

they become strangers.

People falling out with each other

You never hear them talk again.

I'm scared.

Truly scared.

Like looking out into the sky

Only awaiting a meteorite to strike on you anytime.

At these point of times

I would cry,

Maybe not all the time physically;

my heart cries forever.

It cries for freedom

It cries for love

It cries for peace.

-Yumi.

2010-04-29T23:23:00.001+08:00

...I cried again.

Stop hiding yourself from the truth, I beg you.

-Yumi.

2010-04-26T22:26:00.002+08:00

It's the kind of feeling you get when you try to play the middleman.

I've been doing that for years, yet the isolation stings real bad.

Usually, you never see anyone else trying to resolve something between two people.

Of course, when you DO try, especially when those two are your friends, sometimes you might end up losing one of them.

Until today, I still don't understand why people say things like, "I won't like you if you like her."

I guess, everyone does have their choice to whom they want to like.

But sometimes, even in the worst circumstances, you have to put up with a certain person.

That's what I've always done, and will continue to.

Always help everyone, always smile for everyone, everyone will automatically like you.

It's something I live by.

Probably because of that everytime I cry so many people were there for me.

were.

Middleman isn't such a good role.

You lose lots of friends along the way.

I guess, that's how you find true friends?

Middleman never did bring much joy.

You hear complaints about people, from both sides, and you try to resolve it.

It's not as simple as it sounds.

I don't know what else to say.

It's really for the level.

I want the level to stay as one.

The bond is superficial.

It's scary.

It's not something I want to just accept as a fact.

I know I'm stubborn.

But I never liked being blocked by wall to friendship.

Friendship is a word no one can ever decipher it's real meaning.

There are so many kinds of friendships.

Yet so little friendships remain forever.

It's creepy.

I don't like it.

I want to change it.

And on the way, if I lose many friends, if it can bring everyone together in peace...why not?

I lived by this.

I will continue to.

That's why, stop hating others.

The more I hear about it, the more stressed I get.

It's almost like all the fault started from me.

The blame is always on me.

I say it myself.

It is on me;

because I couldn't resolve it for them.

I believe that half of our level would flame me after reading this (bitter laugh).

At least, I hope the other half will understand what I'm trying to do.

Because we shall never fall apart.

-Yumi.

2010-04-26T20:48:00.003+08:00

You know.

I've always realized.

That when I'm down,

no one's there to listen to me.

Even if they could

they wouldn't.

My voice,

is like a distant wind.

It doesn't affect anybody,

It doesn't catch anyone's attention either.

My self,

is like a transparent glass,

I'm right there,

yet you can't see me.

Who ever knew

the bonds we shared

could be so weak?

Who ever knew

that the problems we face

I couldn't do anything.

I tried hard.

But no one listened.

Is my voice

that soft?

Is my presence

that non-existent?

If someone could just listen

hear me out

then maybe

these tears would stop falling.

-Yumi.

2010-04-19T19:37:00.002+08:00

Because I'm bored~

I'm opening a blog on livejournal~

(Because I need one the join the different communities XD)

Don't worry,this will continue to be my main blog!

Also, I hope all of you do know my plans on releasing an album online by the end of the year.

The album will be entitled《弹奏曲》:)

I'll try my best to write and compose 12 songs before the June holidays start!

I already finished 3 full songs and 2 choruses.

If you guys have any ideas on what else I should write about,comment ne~

(Miselle,don't say write about Red Cross.)

Getting less productive by the days...

I needa buck up,or else I'll never finish those songs!

Oh yeah, does anyone know where I can practice my composing?Haha,I need the drums! XD

Lol

-Yumi.

2010-04-12T22:11:00.003+08:00

0[]0 OMG I NEVER POSTED MY STORY "MY SPLATTERED HEART PAINTS THE WALL"!?!?

How can that be POSSIBLE!?I am so proud of that story!!!

Okay anyway since I can't find it on my recent posts I shall (re)post it!

Still I really doubt I've never EVER posted this before.

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"My splattered heart paints the wall."

It was nowhere nearing dawn.
In fact, this night was a long one.
One filled with screams and cries.

All you could do was stare at the cold-blooded killer, coated with the splendors of the red pigment, standing in the middle of her eaten supper.

The long blade she slowly lifted up, and licked the trailing blood off the ends of it.

Then swiftly, she thrusted the blade into you, with both agitation and despair in her eyes.

As you fell onto your knees, she did the same, quickly losing her sharp vision.

All you could see was the array of colours spinning in front of you, carefully leading you to the gateways of the afterworld. And she saw the same.

Then, finally, the two of you collasped on the ground, your blood splattered on the once plastered white back alley wall.

As your heartbeat began to fade, a deep pain had pierced you mentally.

For the truth could not be denied; the murderer -- she was you.

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Comment on it okii? XDD

-Yumi.

2010-04-12T21:30:00.002+08:00

Yaye!I found something to write on!Awesome!!!!!

But I have serious doubts anyone would actually read it.

Why I say that,you'll find out why.

THUS,I SHALL START!!! XDD

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妈妈

妈妈，是我人生最重要的人物。
妈妈，她脸上总带着微微的笑容。
晚上，她会一直看着我，直到安眠为止。
早上，她会在我的身旁等着跟我说“早安”。

我给了妈妈个拥抱：
妈妈个子好小啊，
头发也不是真发。

我的妈妈，
是摆在床边的洋娃娃。

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PLEASE TELL ME YOU READ IT.

PLEASE.

Anyway,for people who didn't understand,it's about a girl who has lost her mother/got abandoned by her mother etc etc and now she's gone mad and thinks that her doll is her mother.

Yea,that's the story behind it.

I wrote another one too,actually.But I think the English version for that is still much better than the Chinese version.

I don't know if I've posted it before,
the title of that story is "My splattered heart paints the wall".

Hmmm.I shall go check.

-Yumi.

2010-04-12T21:22:00.001+08:00

It's been a while since I've last posted here,huh.

I promise that I'll come up with a long long long passage soon~

Until then X3

-Yumi.

2010-04-09T22:51:00.000+08:00

omg.And of course.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRIYA XDD

-Kimmie.

Haha.

2010-04-09T22:47:00.002+08:00

I found this awesome little bear that's totally different from your normal cute-sey cuddly bears.

And I thought it sorta looks like Alyssa.

I present to you

Gloomy Bear.

-Kimmie.

2010-03-29T20:53:00.003+08:00

Fever etc sickness. ._.

From Thursday ._____.

until now .__________.

If I don't get better soon .___________.

I mean

If I don't get better by tomorrow ._______________.

My mum says I have to go for blood test (dengue) .____________________.

-Yumi.

2010-03-20T23:30:00.002+08:00

So yeah.I wrote another long passage again.

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The irony of life. Don't you find it funny? Live your life to its fullest? Are we given the chance?

How ironic it is. We're told to live a happy life, yet all our life is centered on is education. We're told to do what we like; we get winded back to routines. We're told to try our best; we get scolded for not performing well.

What is meaning of life again? To live it to the fullest. But when are we given that chance? Never. Few of us make it out of that concealed corner, most of us are always lost in the disillusion.

The glass that hides us, the ropes that bind us back: get rid of them all. Do what you really want to do in your life. But I want you to know, to always have a smile on your face. If you're angry, you may scream it out, but never vent it on a being or object, or even yourself. It's all about living with a smile.

I'm not able to live that way yet, but maybe, one day, I'll be able to enjoy my own utopia, but I won't expect much either, utopias don't really exist.

Life, such a funny word. Always engulfed in lies and corruption, yet the smallest ray of light comes from the same place. To be able to live life to its fullest, that is, the greatest treasure found on Earth.

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So how did you find it? owo

-Yumi.

Only a few are capable of this.

2010-03-15T21:55:00.002+08:00

I'm really sure 1/2 of the population won't understand what he's saying,so I'll paste the translation down here too.

MOUSOU NIKKI (Delusion Diary)

Our fateful meeting has resulted in a red thread tying us together

Opening my diary again, I make up today, and tomorrow, always

You always give kind smiles to everyone around you; I can't hate you for something like that

Because you're popular, a little of such can't be helped

A room for one, two photos lined up together, we'll meet three days later

Anxiously waiting, anxiously waiting, today I can't sleep again

I believe you'll call the number I added in my letter

Surely you lack the courage to call because you're a SHY person

Don't look at me like that, people around us will realise

Your secret relationship with me

Forgive me for burning with jealousy, I'm fishing around in your garbage

There are other girls besides me, right? I want you to look at me only

It's not good to be fickle. Haven't you promised me? I won't stop before morning

Calling you without speaking, calling you without speaking, I won't let you sleep tonight either

I believe you'll call the number I added in my letter

Surely you lack the courage to call because you're a SHY person

Don't look at me like that, people around us will realise

Your secret relationship with me

Your voice, body, fingers, hair, sleeping face too, even your heart and everything else

My love won't exclude a single thing. You belong solely to me.

People say I'm deluded and they mock me

You don't even know my face

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Yesh! Don't you think that song was amazing?

If you didn't realize, it's about a girl stalking a boy.

Creepy stalker,eh?But I think Mao fits the role perfectly,with that eye...great.I don't how to say in English.With that 眼神.Haha.

And the way he sings the song and hand actions bla bla bla...

All adds up to that MAO MAKES A NUMBER ONE STALKER.

Well,that isn't very bad,right?

Very little people can be entitled to this role.Haha.

I think I belong to this "very little people" too = =

-Yumi.

2010-03-06T22:43:00.001+08:00

Okay, for some reason, all the lyrics are getting meshed up in the previous post.

Blogger, I hate you.

-Yumi.

Lovey-dovey confession

2010-03-06T22:08:00.006+08:00

I shall practice some writing skills now.(LOL)

Just kidding.

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ね、マオ君、ずっと、一緒に、だろ？

Once I felt heartbroken

But not because of something in front of me

Although I did not tear

My heart is crying

We are separated by seas

Yet the connection between us is so deep

I imagine your smile in front of me

It's so satisfying, but not enough

So I'll try smiling And work harder

For your sake

One day,I will meet you
Because I want to feel proud of myself

That I made it through
Those rainy days without you

You're important in my life

Can't you see?

Relations between Senior and Junior

Doesn't seem enough for some

But if that's what I can have

I'll settle for it

If I can't see you now

At least smile for me

It helps me live the day

These days you pull me through.

So I'll try smiling And work harder
For your sake
One day,I will meet you

Because I want to feel proud of myself

That I made it through
Those rainy days without you
You're important in my life
Can't you see?

A tear drops from the heart

It's falling into pieces

Red shards spilled on the floor

Only turning blue

So I'll try smiling And work harder
For your sake
One day,I will meet you

Because I want to feel proud of myself

That I made it through
Those rainy days without you
You're important in my life
Can't you see?

逢いたいわよ…マオ。

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Okay,this turned out into something crappy.

Eesh.Maybe I should translate it all to Japanese when I'm better.

Today's 6/3. Close up with Mao-kun in Shinjuku today.

That's why I'm "celebrating" this occasion in my home in Singapore.
Still got Maths(not PT) and persuasive speech due on Monday!

Gotta finish it, then

じゃまたね

~ユミ.

2010-03-03T16:40:00.002+08:00

Awesome.

Second song is almost done.

Now, should I hack someone's mac, or the school's? haha.

-Yumi.

2010-03-03T16:35:00.002+08:00

Mao's new book ｢一筆書きの美学｣ came out today...

so did ｢sleep｣ ...

...

...

I wish I was in Japan now.

Someone,transport me there this moment.

Or I shall turn emo.

Joking.

Still.

*depression*

-Yumi.

2010-02-28T20:15:00.002+08:00

Maybe this isn't much
for someone like you
but your small hand
brought light into my eyes

The road of life
is never much calm
but after seeing your smile
I don't know what to say

Your life is much different from mine
yet you live with much joy
that incomprehensible happiness you hold
maybe I'll never understand it

Yet I want to reach out my hand to you
Let you know you're not alone
I'll wait for you at the end of this road
So promise me you'll make it through

Then,hopefully,I'll experience true joy
it isn't anything so complicated to feel
made out of only simplicity
shall our friendship continue to last.

-Yumi.

Finally brought myself to.

2010-02-26T20:55:00.003+08:00

Still trying to figure out how to write Sakrim's name in Khmer.

For all I know, maybe her name is Sraem. - -

This is hard...

.Yumi

2010-02-25T18:56:00.001+08:00

Purikura! (Neoprints)

Took them today with Tricia :D hehe.

I need one with Jane now.hahas.

-Yumi.

2010-02-16T14:39:00.003+08:00

http://gurakko.livejournal.com/126295.html#cutid1

SID's one way lyrics translation.

Wanted to cry after reading it,seriously.

Who knew that Mao's younger days were so...uhhh...

tragic isn't the right word to use either.........- -

でもね、やっぱり、マオは一番だ。

がんばって、マオ君！

His life gave me lots of inspiration too. :)

"If you have a talent, pursue it." ~quoted from one of Mao's fans.

You always believed in that,ne,Mao?

From today,I will too. :D

Of course, hopefully I won't be living on expired bento sets from convinience stores.

-Yumi.

CNY

2010-02-14T12:06:00.001+08:00

Happy CNY and Valentines Day :)

Yea,that bear is dedicated to Mao.Hahahahaha.

-Yumi.

Visual Kei

2010-02-02T19:28:00.003+08:00

Singapore really needs a Visual Kei uproar.

I'm dying over here -_-

Sooner I think even my body will fly to Japan...

My personality was born in the wrong country ._____.

It's really frustrating how you have to buy Japanese magazines to get the posters.(which cost like,$30++)

When there ARE mini calendars and stuff of them - - SIDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't wait for SID day :D (Aka SC carnival) too bad I can't buy shiitake to throw at Mao D:

Maybe I will in the future. :)

Downloaded Mixcraft,too.

Hopefully I can buy the full version...maybe I should just get a mac for my music composition :P

My first song in the album compilation will come out soon~~Please look forward to it~ ^ ^

Oyea,it's in Chinese.But still,do support,ne?

褒めて褒めてー

-Yumi.

2010-01-28T21:16:00.001+08:00

Was watching MTV JK hits yesterday.

For some reason when I saw this MV I felt like breaking the TV screen.

I hate SS501 = =

-Yumi.

2010-01-23T09:52:00.002+08:00

You know,maybe having Saturdays packed with Chinese and Japanese class wasn't a good idea.

Now I have to think of a way to go to the Mayday concert.

-Yumi.

*affected by Mao,all my posts have so little sentences...if only Ashin updated his blog more.

2010-01-20T22:10:00.001+08:00

This is NOT good.

My voice is fading by the second...

NOOOOO MY VOICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TT[]TT

-Yumi.

2010-01-15T20:38:00.002+08:00

Ah...I crapped my Chinese compo again.

I wish I didn't have to write in 1st or 2nd person.

Just in 3rd person.OR DON'T EVEN MENTION ANYONE.

AND JUST WRITE THE RANDOM "PHILOSIPHICAL" STUFF.

Eesh.

Got seriously delayed in writing it because of everyone bombarding me with english words for me to translate to Chinese.Come on, I AM NOT A WALKING CHINESE DICTIONARY.WHEN CAN ANYONE GET THAT INTO THEIR BRAINS.

So what if I got an A1 for Chinese?It's not even freaking high.

Will work harder this year to score better for Chinese.

I AIM 80! XDD

...Stop telling me impossible.

-Yumi

Class

2010-01-14T09:03:00.001+08:00

CS right now.I'm so bored.Eesh.

Listening to SID's One Way.Addicted to the song.......X3333

Hahas.

Finally,I write randomly.

Well,maybe because I'm hungry.

Jkjk.

-Yumi.

Happy New Year 2010

2010-01-01T01:20:00.001+08:00

Happy 2010 to everyone!!! RAWR!!!~~~

Happy Tigre Yearrr.roar.growl.bite.roflmao.

oh wait,tigers don't "roflmao".

-Yumi.

2009-12-31T10:25:00.002+08:00

Yaye! ^ ^ Changed the blogskin again.

Finally what I was finding came out.

-Yumi.

2009-12-31T09:58:00.001+08:00

Next year is about to arrive :)

But my brothers are going out D:

What?So all I can say is "See you next year"

AND STAY @ HOME TO WATCH TAIWAN COUNTDOWN!!!WHOO!!~~

-Yumi.

2009-12-25T00:38:00.001+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE.

TIS THE SEASON IS HERE!~ <3

LoL

-Yumi.

Happy.Birth.Day

2009-12-06T00:54:00.001+08:00

I'm gonna make this short and sweet.

Happy Birthday Ashin!~ Mayday forever!!~

-Yumi.

whatever did happen to mutual respect

2009-12-04T14:41:00.004+08:00

My mum always tells me.

That I must have a mind of my own.

Sure,it's easy to say it.

But sometimes I wonder what's the purpose of myself.

I always find me feeling useless and out of place.

In the end I'm always at the mercy of a another being.

When I was in P3.

I used to be bullied everyday.By my deskmates.

I remember my friends always saying, "Kimberly is such a nice person,she won't have any enemies."

Sure.No enemies.

Not mutual,at least.

Even sometimes.

The friends closest to me.

Hurt me unintentionally.

If I didn't hold back.

I'd be going into a crying fit everyday.

Of course,I'm not crying today either.

I'll hold it back.

But...

"Whoever Ki-pi likes is always pathetic."

...I don't understand.

Why?

Why just me?

It isn't fair.

Nothing's fair.

Everything's against me.

I wonder what happened to the person who discovered mutual respect.

-Yumi.

P.S
Lastly, I want to apologize to Mayday,Big Bang,Super Junior.
And the manga artist of Honda Kiku(Japan).
And all the other characters/celebrities I like.
You shouldn't have been dragged into this.
If not for that sentence...that person...

2009-11-17T12:42:00.002+08:00

im stuck.

seriously stuck.

I wrote my new song halfway and now I don't know how to continue it.

But I have a feeling no one can help me finish the song.

《风雪之恋》

小小的光芒就像你的心
在风雪中我们相遇
如果能和你同心
那是多么的美丽

你的笑容我的开心
在我眼睛里你是第一
寒冷的天气
被你的爱心暖到
海角地下里

that's the chorus...
and that's all I think of right now (sigh)

I will try my best to finish the song...

-Yumi.

Haru Haru

2009-11-16T21:58:00.001+08:00

Okay, I can't believe this.

I listened to Big Bang's "Haru Haru" 3 times.

Or more like watched it.

All 3 times I was gonna cry.......

2009-11-03T20:47:00.002+08:00

(hides under bed covers)

Amanda S. is haunting me...

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Confucious.

Born September 28.

Me.

Born September 28...........

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I retired from Suju songs for a while to concentrate on Jiyong oppa.

Then I realized in "This Love" by GD (korean version of Maroon 5's This Love)

The girl GD likes in the MV chose this nerdy business guy[I dunno whoz d actor] over Jiyong oppa. I say,that girl has the worst taste - -

Not too long ago we went shopping.The members would go in one direction and I went another.But Seungri looked left and right and then followed me.Then I yelled, "DON'T COME OVER HERE". -GD

-Yumi.

Reflections

2009-10-28T19:33:00.002+08:00

Relfections from the show Mulan.

Sang by Christiana Aguilera (did I get her name right?).

And Coco Lee.

adapted by Kimberly for Red Cross Singing Auditions...

BUT WHAT THE HELL IS WITH THE "Only One who chose Reflections"!?!?!?

I feel out of place...T T

Is Reflections really THAT hard???

2009-10-17T23:50:00.002+08:00

"Ne,what do you think I should be when I'm bigger?"

"I'm scared..."

"Mummy's too much..."

Who do you usually say that to?

Your friend? Your brother? Your sister? Your pet?

How about a pillow?

Yes...I grew up with that pillow.

The pillow I hugged to sleep every night, the pillow I complained to when I'm sad, the pillow I squeezed real tight whenever I felt down...

That's the whole story about it.

My pillow. It's still with me, but I don't talk to it as much as I did last time.

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"Let me tell you a secret...it happened to me when I was young..."

Then I cried. It was never nice remembering the past.

The corrupted past...

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"What would you do when your being bullied? Oh wait, you don't! You're always in the room with Wolfie and Husky and Dennis and Ele..."

Yes, I was dumb.

So what if I was? I wanted friends.

But I hardly had any.

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"Mummy scolded me again...I don't like her..."

We always say that, don't we?

I knew my pillow wouldn't understand the feeling, or even feel anything.

It was just a pillow.

But yet it was special, to me.

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Sometimes I referred as it to as Mukuro. Riku. Dante. Kiku. Sora. and lots of others.

Maybe it's better off being called pillow after all.

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"I'm stupid. I'm dumb. No one likes me. I know that. No one bothers to talk to me. I'm just left out all the time. No one ever understands me like you do. But that's what makes me me, I guess."

"I hate it when they bully me. Why me and not others? Am I really that frail?"

"I'm always an alien...and I will continue to be one until my last day on the Earth."

As long as my pillow is with me, I don't mind being weird forever.

I just need a huggable friend to count on throughout my life.

-Yumi.

2009-10-17T22:52:00.002+08:00

Every mountain has its summit.After reaching the top,you can't climb higher.

The same goes for us.All children have their own limits,and when they reach them it's not possible to go any further,unless they slowly build a staircase to greater access.

But even so,that staircase is sometimes abandoned halfway.Many people lose their will before reaching the very top.

Why do I say that?Many people just don't have the talent for that certain thing,or are being pushed too much they stress out.Most of the time,the two come in a package.

Parents have to learn their lessons;they cannot simply expect that their children will ace subjects as well as them -- they need to face reality and realize their child's true potential...who knows?He or she might be better in another subject.

The child may be a slow learner,so don't try to hasten things too much.When receiving their results,don't try to throw a tantrum about the marks,acknowledge the child's hard work and know that he or she has already put in all his or her effort to finish the paper.

Screaming continuously at children;calling them failures,only lowers the morale of a child.No one likes to be discouraged by their own parents.

As a result,the child gives up in his or her studies.He or she stops building the staircase to the top.

Only then will parents wonder: Why is he/she giving up?Most parents never realize that the problem derived from themselves, and continue to repeat the same mistake.

I ask you again,parents throughout the world.Why bother scolding and swearing to them when you brought their downfall?

Give them time;be more open minded.Only then will you see their true progress in life.

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I'm sorry for the philosiphical-type post again.

-Yumi.